Sometimes you are not in charge! I would encourage all of you to listen to your Spirit Self, your inner guide or whisper.
Pamela is endeavoring to listen 24/7 to her God Self. She is slipping a few times into the hallucination of Earth. It takes more than a few missteps when learning to walk. In many ways this is similar.
You are learning to live in the new spiritual reality aka New Energy! Be Patient with yourself as you learn like a child. The Son of God; the spark of Divinity that you are!